Currently I have 7 posts from 2017 that I have yet to post but still want to post them.
I hope I get the time to do that sometime soon. Back when I was a teenager, recording every single thing that happened in my life daily seem to be so important to me, but now that I'm an adult (though I don't really feel like one), living in the moment is so much more important to me such as spending quality time with your love ones and doing the things you feel like doing at that particular moment...
Sometimes just having your fairy lights turned on or having your favourite scented candle burning whilst you just lay down on your bed listening to your favourite song is so therapeutic (maybe some people call that lazing around) but it really heals my soul and make me a lil bit happier. I was just doing that awhile ago till I suddenly have the thought to write something (even though I don't really have a point I want to write).
I roughly mentioned about the events of last year in my previous entry. This entry I'm just going to clear a little bit more of my thoughts.
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About to turn 22 in a week's time and for the up teen time I'm feeling appreciative of my surroundings and just want to list down the things I'm grateful for now that I feel like it.
Thankful for my family for being ever so supportive (perhaps they know I'm stubborn so they had rather not be against it) to all the decisions I have made in this life, as long as my ultimate goal of that decision gives me the happiness I seek for.
Thankful for my extended family, the ones whom my mum grew up with to be always so encouraging, celebrating every happy event that's happening in all our lives.
Thankful for the friends who stayed (and tolerated all my nonsense). It's not an easy feat to be my friend. 2017 was the same though I said so many times how I want to change to be a better friend. I'm the friend who sometimes go missing in action (almost every week) and only reply when I feel like it so that I don't give half-hearted replies. But thank you for waiting for my replies and not complaining about how I always disappear. In 2016/2017, I made a book to show my appreciation to all the friends I hold so dearly to my heart for their twenty first birthday. So be honoured if you are one of those who received it. Thankful that 80% of those friends have stayed with me throughout a decade! I guess I'm not that bad of a friend after all.
Thankful for the people I once cherished but whom I cannot allow to stay in my life any longer.
Thankful that in 2017 I found someone who loves me for who I am. They say the one will come when you stop seeking for it. I guess there's some truth to it.
Lastly, I hope all these people will stay with me throughout 2018 and stay healthy and happy!
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Live, not forgetting the people who were once close to you. Hold those memories close to your heart but move on because there's a reason why they leave you, or a reason why you leave them. Never look back.
My biggest takeaway in 2017 is to never ever look back once you make a decision to move on.
Live, not forgetting the people who have passed on. At least for a moment in your life, they once cared for you, and gave you good memories to last you a lifetime however short it is.
I guess I'm a little less afraid to share my thoughts and my feelings to the people around me now. The more afraid I am, the more frustrated I get. Not caring about getting judged and just doing things however you like it is definitely tough, but I guess we will all get there.
My year is really filled with uncertainties but I hope to keep at least the people whom I have fight so hard for. Nothing ever comes easy. Even those that doesn't come easy, you don't expect them to stay by not doing anything to keep them. Happiness isn't to be taken for granted. You fight for it. Fighting for something is happiness itself.
Goodnight. I wonder who stayed throughout my ramblings. Hahahhaa.
Meeeeee! Read all again 😂
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